ok not long since last entry but i just went to friends pages and almost died lol. how far back does it put comm posts? it sorta freaked me out anyway.
i decided to expand on my points before lol.
the hsc is over. 13 years of education wrapped up in a package on no study and counter productiveness. out of all the exams in my school life i studied for the hsc least. which really makes no sense in any way that it is examined from.
if i dont get over 90 ( which i probably dont deserve for lack of study and all) i will be cut beyong belief. if i get in 80s i wont be devastated but i will still be very very angry. i shouldnt be, but for me i consider that a failure to everything i wanted to get out of the fucked up hsc. if i dont get over 80 i will have a heart attack from anger die, reawaken and die again. even if i get over 75so i can atleast get into a course i will be angry. i dont know what i will do.
if i get dux and get under 80 i couldnt live with myself. who the fuck does that? i forsee doom.
BUT THEN FUCK ANYTHING WOULD BE GOOD CAUSE I DONT DESERVE ANYTHING ACTUALLY GOOD! GUH!
i have a headache.
anyway tomorrow is buffy. by buffy i mean will probably by the buffy monster set!!!!!!!!!!which will be a very very very mad thing.
my headache is aching too much.